The Scandal Part Deux

I want to backtrack for a moment to September 19th. That morning, several of the Senior Swamis sat in a session with us and announced that another charge had been levied against Swamiji in the Deccan Herald... that a woman from Tamil Nadu had stepped forward alleging misconduct or abuse from Swamiji. Naturally, there was outrage and disappointment in the room, as we were on the cusp of having the previous charges against Swamiji dropped in Indian court of law. We all rallied together and wrote letters asking the Indian government authorities to help ensure that justice was rightfully and lawfully served. Then we pricked our thumbs and stamped the letters with our blood. Such a small thing, yet it felt like the right way to make ourselves heard.

Later that night, Swamiji announced that the news report was actually a hoax -- the woman had never made the claim. He also said that whoever had signed the letter with their blood (though He never asked us to do it) -- He was responsible for the health of our bodies -- as the same blood that flows in His system also flows in ours. A few tears were shed as He delivered this powerful statement.

Fast forward a few days to yesterday, September 24th. I was asked to give a testimonial about the scandal. How did it affect me? What were my reactions -- as well as those around me within the organization and outside of it (family, friends, etc.)? I was in a low mood yesterday for various reasons: worrying about work, feeling restless and alone, any negativity my mind could grasp onto.

As I started talking about the incident, I relived the moment I first heard the news and saw the video. Something in me just snapped. Like a snake standing straight up. Such strong conviction coursed through me -- and in that instant, my connection to Swamiji was reinforced. I always knew I had a connection with Swamiji, but then my ego and mind would question my level of devotion. How come I wasn't able to just surrender and throw myself into mission work? How come I wasn't able to outwardly express my love and devotion the way others did? It became a major source of conflict for me, and I struggled to understand my own sincerity. Today, many of these people I compared myself to are no longer with the mission... there was no basis for my suffering. I realize that it's not how loudly or how often you say it. It's how you feel inside.

As I was giving my testimonial, my Ananda Gandha started to buzz and energy flowed through my body. Yes, it's a reminder of why I'm here. This journey may be intense and tough at times, but it's really happening. There's no turning back now.

I Love You & I Am With You

How Not to Miss the Master

This was Swamiji's morning message to the group, as He prepared to leave for the two-week Himalayas Yatra. Understand that the Master is not mass, and you will not miss! There was such a softness to His voice and body language as He thanked us for standing by Him in the face of religious persecution. For those of us staying behind, He left us with this one idea: I love you & I am with you. Many eyes were not dry as we walked out of the temple.

This Unclutchable was a bit sad that my other Unclutchable counterparts were leaving as well for the Himalayas...and I was staying behind to do some lone crime-fighting. Okay, it was more like to do work. But the lesson here is that I should be conflict-free about any decision I make. So I'm going with flow and am actually enjoying this quiet time to focus on seva, work and also connecting with other people within the group.

It's an opportunity to learn how to be by yourself and to not feel lonely or restless. You realize how much you rely on other people's companionship to fill your time. I'll spend these next few days looking in...and seeing who's actually in here :)

Nithyananda, Kundalini Shakti & Arunachala, Oh My!

We've been a bit remiss in blogging about our experiences in Living Enlightenment Program (LEP) 2010. But never fear. The Unclutchables are on your side... and here to serve the greater good in the quest to attain the ultimate truth: that we are all Enlightened Beings. We just may not know it yet.

Paramahamsa Nithyananda - or Swamiji - is hellbent on liberating us from the confines of our own measly minds. We say "measly" because how many of us can actually control and tame our thoughts? How much of our brainpower are we actually using? Swamiji revealed today that even Albert Einstein, one of the most influential and best known scientists and philosophers, only used 1/3 of his brain. Where does that leave the rest of us?

Swamiji says that we can access the energy fields of certain temples or holy cities in India, which are unlocked by a special "password" -- whether it's being born or dying within city limits or even receiving darshan there. However, Swamiji says that only Arunachala, a holy hill at Thiruvannamalai in his home state of Tamil Nadu, can be accessed by simple remembrance. In the same way, if we awaken our Kundalini Shakti, a huge amount of potential energy within the non-mechanical parts of the brain, we can also access the energy field of our "temple" -- our bodies.

The Unclutchables are going through some intense processes with Swamiji to awaken our Kundalini Shakti... and maybe unleash more superpowers that are lying dormant within us. Stay tuned...